For crows. For the robins bathing in my potholes. For cacti,
for succulents, for shade. For the 7.5 billion people on this planet competing
for access to fresh air, clean water, nourishing food, good love, and safe
housing. For the planet’s three trillion trees, for the sheer improbability of
trees. For the fewer than 30,000 monarchs left in the world. For the milkweed
seeds my brother gave me. For my brothers and their young sons, whose laughter
I hope remains a sparking ember, even in the precarious future. For my
boyfriend’s ex-wife, who could never give
up a child. For her children, who will have less competition for their father’s
resources. For hard facts and soft sheets. For slow mornings over coffee after
bountiful sleep. For my savings account. For my cats. For everyone who tears up
their lawn to plant pollinator gardens. For everyone at the farmer’s market.
For everyone who thinks I shouldn’t have this choice and their children and
their children’s children. For the eighty Sumatran rhinos. For the 24,000
organic farms in the United States. For goats, the event horizon of their eyes.
For last night’s full moon, for the dream of a gray horse. For silence, long
books, and writing poems. For friendships nurtured over vast distances. For
friends offering music, money, and muscle despite said distances. For Illinois,
where I was born, whose state laws still treat me like an adult making an
informed decision. For my home of Tennessee and its companion states that
infantilize women, making them wait eighteen to twenty-four hours for their
abortions after a consultation. For the women persisting in these states,
bright and indomitable as zinnias. For zinnias, lavender, and honeybees. For my
ankles, my breasts, my hips. For freedom. For generosity. For forests. For the
recovering manatee population, the spread of bald eagles. For coral, for
whales, for sharks, and foxes. For trickster myths and centipedes. For the
finches nesting under my porch eave, their chicks’ slender squeaks unhitching
their beaks. For you. For this morning. For me, for me, for me.
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Amie Whittemore is the author of the poetry collection Glass Harvest (Autumn House Press). Her poems have won multiple awards, including a Dorothy Sargent Rosenberg Prize, and her poems and prose have appeared in The Gettysburg Review, Nashville Review, Smartish Pace, Pleiades, and elsewhere. She is the Reviews Editor for Southern Indiana Review and teaches English at Middle Tennessee State University.
10 comments
Mary Roy says:
Jan 19, 2020
Thank you immensely for this piece. I will revisit it many times I know.
Jan Priddy says:
Jan 20, 2020
A “heart” for all.
Hannah says:
Jan 21, 2020
Absolutely beautiful.
Marie says:
Jan 30, 2020
You made your point in a compact, strong essay that impacted me. I feel the same way.
Nels Highberg says:
Feb 1, 2020
Such illuminating twists and turns. Just stunning.
Brianna Sinder says:
Feb 9, 2020
It’s not an easy thing. It’s a beautiful, painful thing. Thank you for this.
Dawn Paige says:
Feb 22, 2020
Wow. I never thought of it like this before. I admire your bravery in saying, “For me, for me, for me.” I think this should be required reading for people who picket outside abortion clinics.
Madi says:
Mar 2, 2020
Needed to be said, and you did so beautifully
Rosie says:
Apr 12, 2020
This is lovely and I see so many of my own reasons for not having a child reflected here. Thank you for this.
Peter Gullerud says:
Jun 25, 2022
On this sad historical day, this beautiful poem needs to be shared now..more than ever.