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  1. Jan Priddy
    January 20, 2020

    Oh yes, I can totally relate to the heartbeat, to the amazement at calm, to the fear that does not logically recede, to regret and not-regret at once. Thank you.

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  2. Amelia
    January 20, 2020

    How real and raw and powerful.

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  3. Joanne
    January 20, 2020

    I love how you structured and told this story, Lara. I am sorry you had to experience it, though. But I am so glad you took the experience and made something powerful of it.

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  4. David Evans
    January 20, 2020

    A parent’s nightmare. I could certainly feel and almost hear your heartbeat. I think the back and forth structure works well. Your essay took me back to Jo Ann Beard’s June 24, 1996 New Yorker essay “The Fourth State of Matter.” Similar dramatic type of tempo and pulse. Well done.

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  5. Yael Aldana
    January 21, 2020

    This is powerful. I live a few miles from parkland and was in hell for 40 mins when the shooter was at large and my son was in middle school. Thanks for this.

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  6. Leslie Stack
    January 21, 2020

    Every parent’s nightmare whether it’s elementary, middle, or highschool, college, a concert, or anywhere that a large group of people congregate. Take me instead. Please. With each event or threat of an event, we add another few hundred people with PTSD to the ranks of those who are already dealing with it every day. I wonder how many kids are dealing with long term health issues from stress just from the drills they are required to participate in in preparation for it.

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  7. Joanne Nelson
    January 21, 2020

    Oh how these things linger.Nicely done. Congratulations.

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  8. Marsha McGregor
    January 27, 2020

    Lara, thank you for your vivid illustration of how the unthinkable is becoming normalized. Even the cadence of your piece mirrored your growing anxiety in the moment, which mirrored mine.

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  9. T.
    March 27, 2020

    Holy crap, but this is good. And unfortunately very apt for the moment.

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  10. Lavonne Roberts
    May 20, 2020

    I love the way you write in real-time and make art out of fragmented thoughts that weave together a day-in-the-life. Grenade indeed! And, I love that you changed your pronouns on Twitter!

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